I just had a bad moment in the post office, I wa sin the queue waiting to buy a stamp to post my most recent sick note into work and that Kate Bush song came on in there
''It doesnt hurt me, let me feel how you feel''
''If I only could, Id make a deal with God, and Id offer to swap our places''
well the tears started and I felt like a fool, I tried to stop it and calm down, I didnt make a scene or anything, just silent tears falling, very painful.
How often my parents have said this to me, and I look at people in the street and think why isnt it you, why is it me?
sometimes I try to reverse that and imagine that my beautiful son is the one suffering with this and I have taken it away from him so he doesnt have to suffer, guys will I heal? Im so deep into this, Im finding it very difficult to cope.
