Hi Guys,.
no doubt you have all had a passing thought in the past couple of weeks....''where is the rapidfire posting machine that is Iggy/caroline''
well Im ok, Im still here and hanging on,
After reaching a crisis point my mum came to stay, she is going back to spain next tuesday.
I dont know why but it has helped, that or Im at a good point in my cycle (true) or its a semi window but things have been a little better, dont get me wrong, Im still crying multiple times per day, still having bad symptoms and still having suicidal thoughts many times per day but it has been a little better.
Im not anhedonic, thats what it is I think, I can enjoy things, since my mum has been here Ive started to watch TV again, apart rom the tudors on the computer I havent done that for months, I have been shopping in town, been to a museum (although that was a horror show and I wont be doing it again anytime soon) to the park with my son...all these things have been uncomfortable and done only to pass the time, but I have done them and Im quite proud of myself. we have decided that my mum will come and stay every 4 months for a couple of weeks. That will give me something to aim for.
I think not being on the forums non stop has helped me too, Ive decided just to pick one forum and not be on it all the time, so I pick this one.
I will post a better update at the end of the month but I just wanted to quickly drop in and let everyone know Im ok, it seems mean to be saying how suicidal I am and then disapear, I know how much I worry about others when I dont hear from them.
Ill be back around soon guys. xxx